So after my previous blog I went to visit my friends and admitted I had a crush on a certin activist. Im like im gonna ask them on a date, then im like not a date date,i just like them. Then i tried to explain not like like, so finally I admitted that I had a crush on them.They were like what the fuck this person is so not right for you, you are both so intense your fights would be crazy. They brought up all sorts of negative charictaristics and were like if you ask them out they will text me and be like ohhh my god you wont believe who asked me out. I told them all the nice things they did for me, and they are like I did all that to but your not asking me out. They made fun of me for awhile and i got the number of this girl. Was gonna call but had a bad feeling about someone else, which was wierd cause I havent really talked to them for awhile, but some bad shit happenned to my other friend like a few days ago and they are gone so im like fuck it better call them first. Me and this person have history so i will leave it at that. I call and im like shit what do i say like is any bad shit happening to u? So im like merry xmas etc. and they hang up which is really good cause if they hate me that means they can hate and if you hate then bad shit wont happenned cause hate is one of those emotions. If they were just like fuck julian hes annoying thats also good cause its still like yeah. So Im like calling my boss for advice but she didnt answer left her a msg, then the shit storm hit and I realized how fucked up shit is and getting involved in a relationship is fucked, even asking someone on a date is fucked especially with all this shit and charges and blah blah blah. Maybe any time a lawyer calls, or emails or something I should just harpoon my phone. Plus why the fuck would this person ever date me? So i call my boss and let her know I changed my mind and dont have a crush on this person, then my friend comes over and ask him to throw me some flipp so ican do some xmas shopping.
Im grabbing some shit for these friends of mines kids cause of various random reasons, so i go back to my friends house tell them i am not crushing on this person, they chalk it up to temporary insanity and there hunting buddy is there and we start talking about crossbows, shooting squirrels and guy things which gives me the best idea, get a six year old a high powered co2 pellet gun with a real laser scope and hollow point pellets. My other friends are like you should ask the mother first. We chit chat and they say no, i call ack to ask about a simple winchester pellet gun, they say no. I call a cab go to the mall and get annyed but on the way Nikki menage fly is playing and Im like yeah, im here to win, im here to fight and get in a better mood, after 12 calls she agrees to soft point plastic pellets and a pellet gun on certain conditions, but I gotta try everything out and check shit out etc.
Now the thing that makes me endearing also makes people hate me. I am childidh sometimes and off course i gotta try it out. Now remember its plastic bb soft point that cant even dent a can and has some wierd orange shit on the muzzle, so i go to an abandoned area, where ther are no buildings and car and all hear is “drop the gun Ichim” 90% of me is like fuck it i should tell them fuck themselves, im not breaking any law, but that 10% was the nagging voices of all the idiots in my life who always yell at me for being so childish. I put down the soft airgun and start ripping into the cop. I call him an idiot and ask how stupid he is and what if he would have shot me, why was he following me etc etc etc. He agrees to let me go and not say shit and I get to keep the airgun. (apperently its a lot of paperwork to pullout a gun and i was threatening to sue and it was like fucken all orange muzzled, plastic and shit) I wasnt breaking any laws, the place was the type of place for such activities etc. Now if i tried it out in the mall that would be a diffrent story……..still im in a good mood cause it was kinda funny. I call one friend to tell them i just get to the part about guns drawn and they snap. I call my other friend who is a guy and apperently he had 10 friends who did the same shit, went to the same place and had the same response. We joke around and laugh at how funny that is. I feel good cause im joking with my friends etc.
Chou Enlai, when asked if he felt bad for not having kids, said every child in China is my child so what do you mean I have no kids. Yeah shit is kinda fucked for me right now legally and with what i will do if convicted so i cant get into a relationship, but I have the love of my community and friends. Like the song says Im here to win, im here to fight, and fight I will with my heart and conviction until final victory. This fight and struggle is motivated by love for me community and friends even if they hang up on me when I say funny stories. Even the naggers in there own screwed up controlling dont have any fun way care about me. One could say that by being part of the movement Im surrounded by love, and if thats not enough to keep me occupied, im sure i can buy a crossbow!!!!!