So today I got a call from Vancouver, someone wanted to write about the impact that Khalids infiltration has had on my personal life, since im kinda sick i didnt do the best interview that I could but the interview made me really think about some important issues.
Many people still see the infiltration and g20 arrests that followed as part of the state trying to find out information and stop criminal activity. The discussion that the media is presenting is one of ohh my god, the police broke the law, or ohh my God the police advocated violence, as opposed to the real discussion that should be takeing place which is why did these infiltrations take place, what was there purpose and why is the state trying to cover up what has happened by arresting the people like myself and Dan Kellar that are speaking about this.
As i pointed out earlier, in the g20 papers the people who were targeted for surveillance and infiltration were not targeted because of anything that they were doing but rather because of the so called criminal ideology that they held. In other words to hold an ideology is now reason enough to be targeted, infiltrated and attacked by the state.
So i was not targeted because of what i did but rather for what i thought and still think, that I am and will always be a Marxist Leninist. The others that were targeted were so targeted because they were anarchists, socialists etc.
In this light the state attacks and infiltration were a direct result of the ideology that we hold. Most of us who were charged were open organizers, part of this community for quite some time. If the state really wanted to know who we are and what we were doing there was no need for them to go to such length and infiltrate our movement, one simply needs to go downtown KW or other such places and ask people, or more simply actually investigate who we are. None of what I do politically is secret and as a political person my politics ideology and platform, what I stand for are public information. During the monday protest at the g20 our goals were clearly stated in the call out and for the saturday and sunday of the g20 protest the aims that I wanted to achieve were openly stated in the KW Record. I did not at any point hide what I was doing but as a political person have been open with my aims and goals.
So what was the role of the infiltration and attacks that the state has launched against me and others. Simply put there goals and aims were to criminalize our politics, sow distrust among activists and revile and smear what we stand for. After a year and a half of infiltration, my charges were dropped because they were bullshit, and the whole so called conspiracy was thrown out the window, with 6 people pleading guilty to the lesser charge of counselling to commit offenses for holding public workshops on civil disobedience. My understanding of why these six plead guilty for simply holding open workshops was because of the impact that peoples bail conditions have had on there personal lives and the desire just to get shit over with. I dont get this information from any one person but rather from the information that is in the media etc.
So what was the impact of the infiltration, my arrest, the disclosure and all of this on my life and the life of my community? For one thing every aspect of my personal life was revealed to every single one of my ex co-accused, there lawyers etc. and if the case would have gone to trial the general public, twisted in such a way as to cause mistrust, anger and create a climate where it is easy to point fingers and divide. Yes i was made to look like this crazed person, but from what I understand i was not the only one. The fact that peoples personal lives were so well documented and distorted shows that the purpose of the infiltration had nothing to do with just getting the facts but had everything to do with taking public political people and demonizing them. For example, there is in the disclosure how and what positions my ex and me enjoyed during sex, how is this an issue of national security? What does this have anything to do with getting a conviction? From what I understood about the charges that we faced they had nothing to do with what I do in the bedroom. From what I hear most of the rest of the disclosure pretty much reads the same way, which is that issues that have nothing to do with getting convictions or collecting facts but has everything to do with dividing the movement and embarrassing people by documenting gossip, internal drama, and twisting peoples personal lives to make them look bad, of which, I look the worst.
Furthermore, the state through this infiltration and the brutal attacks at the g20 on organizers of political action were sending a clear message to the people of this territory, which is if you decide to become political you will feel the attack of the state and you to will be targeted and attacked. During my arrest for this so called conspiracy i was nabbed in broad daylight out of a coffee shop, and brutally beaten in full view of my ex and the general public. The police was nice enough to leave the van door open so people could watch and know what will happened to them if they decide to become political. After all its not my first beating by cops, but it is the first time they acted with such arrogance that they did it in full view of the public not even trying to hide the fact that they are acting like thugs and brutalizing people becuase of there roles as political people. This arrest and act was carried out as a direct result of the fact that I am a political person with the purpose of showing to the general public the consequences of dissent.
Peoples bail conditions, non associations etc were put in place not to stop people from committing crimes but rather to stop them from organizing. For example, Alex Hundert was arrested on a breach for speaking on a panel at a university for participating in a public demonstration. The way the issue was posed was was this or was this not a public demonstration as oppossed to the real question being why does the court have a right to ban people from participating in public demostrations in the first place. Even after my charges were dropped in Nov. I had non associations with many people including my ex (except in the presence of her parents)despite the fact that I no longer had any criminal charges. This was only dropped as a result of me quitting Sense of Security, which was a open public political organiziation. So the issue had nothing to do with crime but rather had everything to do with attacking, criminalizing and dismantling our political organizations.
If these attacks are not enough we are now getting arrested and charged for talking about what happened. Dan Kellar was arrested while biking for writing about Khalid, I was charged not for protesting or Occupy Guelph but rather for sitting at home and writing my side of the story on my computer? Why? My charge was a hybrid charge which means that the crown could have chose to go either summarily or intiable, they chose inditable, why? The message that they are giving is simple, if you will talk about what happenned, try to get your story out or start a discussion about it then we will not only criminalize you but throw the book at you. This is not just an attack on me but an attack on our collective memory, the state does not want people to remember what happened, so they can do it again and again and again. The state does not want people to discuss the over 1000 arrest, the attacks, the brutal overcrowded prison conditions, the infiltration and criminalization of politics, the same why that after the Mcdonald commision in the wrong doings of the RCMP during the october crisis which included arrests all the way in vancouver, they did not want the peoples of this territory to discuss that but rather forget. They want to make an example out of me and Dan to show people what happenneds when you speak the truth. Well let them!!!!! In this blog I show every aspect of every part of my life because I am no longer afraid and I have nothing to hide. I will fight them with everything I have and I will be an example, but not the type that they want, they want an example of humilation and fear I will be an example of defiance and resistance, because I am in the right. They want us to forget, well i will never forget the damage that they caused me nor the last two mounths of my moms life when all she wanted was for her son to find another surety. I will never forget the damage that they have done our movement simply for the fact that we are political. I will fight this battle because if i dont then they dont just silence me but anyone else who wants to speak out, and they do it so that they can impose there version of what happened, and so we forget the truth. I will fight so this is not so and ask others to join me.